If only I could find my If book....

If you could sell your soul for one thing, what would it be?

Strawberry cheesecake ice cream from Safeway or Vons.

If you were to make your most seductive face, what would you look like?

This is an interesting question, because it is absolutely pointless for one thing. I often take my camera and try to take pictures of myself in front of my bathroom mirror. I literally have to take a hundred of them just to get one picture that I like. The other 99 pictures I just look plain psycho. When I do my seductive face, or what I think is a seductive face I seriously look pissed off. It must be my subconscious telling me that mad is hot.

I'm not a great picture person. I would rather take pictures of other people.

If you had to choose the single most valuable thing you ever learned, what would it be?

I think the most valuable thing I learned is that life is too short to live your life miserable. I think my motto is to be happy in life. Live life how you want to, otherwise you will be miserable and fail at life. I do what I want to do (within legal reason), I don't let people tell me I can't do this or I can't do that. If I want to smoke a cigarrette, don't tell me how to die. At least I'm dying doing something I enjoy. Do not preach to me your faith, I am completely satisfied worshipping my computer. I work retail, sure I'm not making that money that I could be, but I am happy where I am. If you think I raise my children like the spawn of Satan, then I am. They will have the freedom to decide for themselves what they will become.

Sometimes I feel like I am the luckiest person in the world. Nobody has any idea how happy I am with my life. Sometimes I feel like something will go very wrong. Maybe it will all come crashing down. Then I think to myself that I do have things go wrong all the time. Things do not turn out how I want them to all the time. But I make the best of it. I do not have the perfect life, but I am happy with it. It is other people that dwell on their problems too long that make it seem like my life is perfect.

Things get tough in life and I really hate seeing when people give up. Keep trying, do things to make yourself happy. If it doesn't go your way, move on. There are a million other different things on earth that can make you happy. There's nothing more depressing then being around a depressing person. So fucking smile!

If you could relive one romantic date from high school, which would you choose?

Unfortunately, I can't recall any romantic dates. In fact, I don't remember anything romantic from my high school days. For some reason kids in high school didn't date. They went straight to a relationship, which if I think about it now, it's pretty stupid. Most of my "dates" were spent at home with my daughter. I don't remember going out and doing normal things. All the nights out and romantic dates came after my daughter was older and I was out of high school.

If you could have any one specific power over other people, what would it be?

This is a tough question. There are so many things I would do to people if I had the power. I'm sure everyone wants the world to be a better place. There are many things wrong with this world. But there are many things right also. I'm not trying have some miraculous discovery here, I'm sure everyone knows all of this.

If I had the power I would make everyone see. I mean really see. I would want it to have an effect on their lives. I would want people to see how their bad attitudes and negative feelings affect everything including themselves. I would want people to see that their generosity and kindness is worth something.

I know people that are so miserable that they can't see the big picture. Life is too short to worry about a lot of crap that some people worry about. It's not really worth living if you're going to live your life like that. Those are the kind of people that live to die. I live to live.

I know people, like my husband, who risk their lives every day and wouldn't give a second thought about it before they do. My husband also does everything he can do to make me happy. I wish I had the power to show him how much I appreciate it, even though I really can't.

I you could change one thing about your home, what would you make different?

My house has no character at all. Then again, I'm not an interior decorator or anything. I'm sure someone could fix it up to give it something else. But, if you come to my house, it is a normal plain house with the same features that you would find in any home built in the early 2000's. Nothing special.

I would definitely change the backyard. It has a nice long covered patio. But nothing else. No grass, no rocks, no trees. Just dirt and dust. It is quite unpleasant being back there. It needs some trees, bushes, maybe a little patch of grass, stepping stones, a water feature maybe. I always wanted a fire pit in my backyard. My kids really don't get out of the house much. They would definitely be outside more if there was grass to play on.

The inside of my house would look good in a different color other then eggshell white. The floors could be changed from plain tan carpet to stone or wood. Some oriental style decorating has always been a favorite of mine. Of course, there is always the problem of needing money to actually do all these things.

I guess I have lots of time to plan things out and figure out how I want my house to be. We aren't actually planning on doing anything to change this house. We are only renting it. I looked around online for houses to buy. There are some really cheap houses in this area right now. I also decided I don't want a newer house. The houses built in the 80's and early 90's have much more character then the houses being built today.